Wishcast Wednesday and 52 Photo Project

Hello my fellow wishers and dreamers, today over at Jamie Ridler's Studios and Bella's 52 Photo Projects we are sharing our wishes and images. Today's prompts are: What do you wish to take a break from and a picture from "the blue hour" which is between dawn and sunrise or sunset and dusk.  So here we go.

What I wish to take a break from is the constant worry that my husband is going to end our marriage.  It has been weighing on my mind for the last FEW years as he struggles with his feelings and doubts.  I have been patient, understanding and hopeful but underneath it all is the CONSTANT fear that he is going to leave and that I am being a fool for waiting him out. 

To say this situation has effected all areas of my life would be an understatement.  I wish to get to a place where I'll be ok within myself no matter what happens, it sucks giving this kind of power over yourself to someone else.  For the rest of the summer I wish to to take a break from fear and worry and enjoy each day as it comes with my husband and with myself.  I know this won't be easy and I'll have to remind myself everyday but this day is all about the magic of wishes and this is mine.

My iphone camera and photo applications have been my constant creative companion these days where my physical (just found out I have arthritis in my knee) and mental energy have been low.  It is really helping me train my eye for composition.  I just wish there was a way to print these pics in high quality but I don't think there is yet.

This leads me to Bella's 52 Photo Projects prompt.  I actually love the "blue hours" though I am rarely awake for the earlier dawn to sunrise hours I am always glancing up at the sky in the latter sunset to dusk hours.  I took the above photos over a few days loving the brilliant pinks one day and the subtle glow left behind some clouds the next.  I like the time when the sun has just gone down even though I guess technically it is not quite "blue" yet.  I love the glow left at that moment.

What are you wishing to take a break from today?  As you wish for yourself, I am also wishing for you.

May this day find you and yours well.
Namaste,
Karen

Wishcast Wednesday and 52 Photo Projects

Necklace and Kelly Rae Box sitting on my table

Hello my fellow wishers and dreamers, today over at Jamie Ridler's Studios and Bella's 52 Photo Projects we are sharing our wishes and images.

Today's prompts are:  What do you wish for your summer and what picture holds the words that describe you.

I almost did not post today since I have been going through tough times physically and emotionally and I always think people want to only read happy go lucky stuff but you know what F#@% it , this is my life right now and if I don't share the bad times along with the good times I am only showing you one side of me and my life. 

One summer wish is that I remember the words above, to BREATHE and have FAITH and COURAGE.  These are the words describing me right now in this moment. 

There is much going on for me these days on the physical and emotional planes... Physically I was just diagnosed with arthritis of my knee, aggravated it by injury and found out with MRI. So I feel like this is another (along with already existing asthma) chronic condition I need to get used to in my life. Emotionally the roller coaster ride I call marriage is coming out of the swooping stomach dropping free fall it was in recently and  heading back up the hill but these free falls take their toll on me.   When these things happen it seems like the ride back up the hill takes an eternity and I have to watch out not to lose my faith and endurance along the way. 

Another wish for this summer is that my husband and I enjoy each other, warts and all, and re-connect on all levels and I wish to also re-connect with my sense of self that gets lost during tough times, and to truly enjoy all the joys of the season with friends and family.

I recently wrote a letter to my body over at Kristin Noelle's which I would like to share here today because it is a wish of mine to read this letter to myself each day until it seeps into my soul.

Dear body of mine,

I wanted to first say I am so sorry for the way I have been mistreating you over the years. I go from being really aware of all your flaws to completely ignoring you all together. We have been on a bumpy ride the two of us, never quite comfortable together. I know part of this was no fault of ours but now it is time to get back on track and learn to live together in a healthy and loving way.

I want to say I love you to my upside down bowling pin legs, my over 40 belly, my bumpy toes and old man lined hands. I want to say forgive me to my smile for neglecting it for fear of judgment over a front tooth which is crooked due to a beloved niece knocking her head into mine.

I want to promise you that I will try to always fill you with nourishment and love and forgive me for those days when only grilled cheese and chocolate will do. I want to start moving with you more, getting into the flow of an active life. And though we may have some health concerns to deal with I will do my best to keep us as healthy as I can and respect and love you as I would a dear friend.

But most of all I want to say thank you for always being here for me even when I felt unsafe and unloved. May we have many healthy and happy years ahead of us.

Love,
Karen

So my fellow wishers what are you wishing for your summer?  As you wish wish for yourself, I wish for you also.

Namaste,
Karen

Wishcast Wednesday

Hi my fellow wishers and dreamers, today is Wednesday and over at Jamie Ridler's Studios we are sharing our wishes.  Today Jamie asks us what delights do you wish for?

Definition of DELIGHT - from Merriam Webster Dictionary

1: a high degree of gratification : joy; also : extreme satisfaction
2: something that gives great pleasure

I wish to delight in the joy that is found when you engage all your senses and the summer season is ripe with opportunities to do this.  Here is a small slideshow from the last few weeks with examples of all the senses including the sixth sense, the spirit.  I have been a bit quite lately, the words hard to find.    I am still taking pictues so for now they can speak for me.




What delights are you wishing for today?  As you wish for yourself, I am wishing for you also. 
Namaste,
Karen

Wishcast Wednesday and 52 Photos Project

Today is Wednesday and over at Jamie Ridler's Studios we are sharing our wishes and at Bella's 52 Photos Project we are sharing our pictures.  Jamie is asking us "what do we wish to begin?" and Bella is asking us to find a heart in our pictures. 

I have been finding it hard to express myself in words lately.  I am in a bit of a flux staying creative by taking iphone pictures, the most I can give my energy to right now.  Everyday we have the choice to begin and that is what I am doing, slowly but surely.  So today I am answering Jamie's wish with a short poem expressing what I would like to begin.  The heart flare picture above is what I love about taking sun flare pictures, you never know what magic will be created.  To take a flare picture you can point your camera directly into the sun and shoot away.  This picture goes well with my poem as I believe it all begins with love.

Begin
Begin the healing
Begin the feeling
Begin the seeing
Begin the being
Begin the caring
Begin the sharing
Begin the giving
Begin the living
Begin in love
Begin being part of
Begin and begin again

So where are you today in your wishes and heart?  What you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also.

May today find you and yours well.
Namaste,
Karen

My week in Pictures - Iphone edition

Happy Saturday... words are hard to find for me today so I will share some iphone pics from this week.
Have a wonderful weekend, may you and yours be well.

Namaste,

Karen

Wishcast Wednesday and 52 Photo Project




After the storm

 
Good morning my fellow wishers and dreamers.  Today is Wednesday and over at Jamie Ridlers Studio's we are sharing wishes and at Bella's 52 Photo Project we are sharing our pictures. 

The prompts this week are "What is your Money Wish" and share a memory photograph.  I have been noticing since combining these 2 prompts that my wish and photograph are gelling well together.  This week is no different.  I first read Bella's prompt on Sunday and I immediately thought of the above picture taken at the beach last summer then I read Jamie's wish prompt today about money and you know how the story goes about a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. lol.  I have to say this wish prompt is difficult for me as I find it hard talking about money.

The money wish I have is pretty simple.  I would like to be able to find a way to make money doing something I love and that has purpose.  Currently I am working part time bringing in some money to contribute to my household and to support any classes I am taking.  In the 30 plus years that I have been working I have not really loved any job I had.  The people I worked with were always nice and there was nothing horrible about any of the jobs I just never felt satisfied.  I was lucky to have been able to find work and for that I am grateful but my deeper wish is that my job and purpose work together.   I have a strong desire to have my job mean something and to be able to support myself, do you know what I mean?  This is all about wishes so I am just putting this out there into the universe.

The photo prompt over at 52 Photos Project was to choose a memory picture.  This picture came to mind immediately as lately I have been trying to recall times I felt joy and hope in my life.  The last few years have been tough with deaths in the family and a marriage that is a bit rocky.   I find myself looking for all the life lines I can to get me through this time.
The feeling I had upon seeing this rainbow was of such pure joy and hope, it actually brought tears to my eye.  I have seen rainbows before but for some reason this one came at just the right moment.  I really felt that hope and joy right down to my bones, I ran all up and down the street taking pictures of it just so I could remember that feeling.  The sad thing is until this prompt I had forgotten that moment of joy which is giving me the idea to create a collage board of these pictorial moments, a visual reminder I can hang somewhere in my house and see it every day.  Sometimes you just need to remember there were and will be better days.

So what is your money wish today?  As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also.

May you and yours be well,
Namaste,
Karen